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Ah... Looks like I'm not grieving as much, and I'm getting back into things. That's good.
I thought I'd never recover from this much, but I am feeling like I'm starting to get better. And I'll soon get back into the thick of things, like I have done before. Though with that in mind, things have started.... getting borked. I can't seem to use PlayStation's Remote Play feature anymore. Welp... good thing I can stream on my dad's PS5, if I play a PS4 game, at least.
I'm gonna attempt to stream on Twitch next week, starting on Monday. Initially, I was gonna stream a couple of weeks back, but... well go see the bottom most post about that. Kinda been getting random and sometimes odd dreams every bedtime. Weird. Probably my mind coping on the loss of my grandfather, but what's it all mean?
Still not myself yet, irl. But I'm hanging in there. I did have an odd dream, which has me question it. So that's something to distract myself. In fact, I've been doing my dailies on PSO2:NGS and Umamusume, and am sort of gaming, lately. So that's an improvement compared to last Saturday. So I guess I am still healing, though my eating habits haven't been completely back to normal. I just consumed an entire box of Little Debbie Fuge Rounds, and have been having more than 5 scoops of Ice Cream. Will I ever be back to normal? Hopefully I will soon.
Also... I just saw videos about the random anime clip that was in the opening of the show "Malcom in the Middle"? Apparently that's an actual anime, and I didn't know about it. Did you? Probably you have... or not. Who knows.
Well... I finally got to do the changing of Hyperlink colors. Good. The Blue and Purple kinda clashed a lot, and that's saying something. So now, the hyperlinks will be in White, or Sky Blue, with Sky Blue being a link you visited. I also changed another thing, what was bigger in text, but white, is now bigger in text, but in Sky Blue. I also learned how to make picture hyperlinks, so I may replace some things in the future with pictures. But not right now.
In irl things... Still not completely back to normal, but I'm getting there. I just need more time to heal. A funeral for my grandfather is coming up, and though I can't be there, I know I'm still grieving in my own way. It's gonna be a while more until I am healed enough to do more than just the little things. Please pray for me, and my family, in hopes to get through the loss of my grandfather. :'(
I dunno what to say... I'm still grieving. When I heard the news of his passing, (See the blog from 1/24/2026), it hurt. Really it did. Right now... I'm up at 4am. Just to make a blog, and then try to sleep. But I am gonna try harder to go back to my normal routines. It's not gonna be perfect, nothing is perfect in reality, but I'll try. Besides. If I keep sulking, dishes are gonna pile up. So... I decided to pretty much do things, like update this site, and do my dailies on games like PSO2:NGS, and Umamusume Pretty Derby. After that... Well... I'll see. I haven't checked my E-mail lately. I should. But I don't wanna do that while I'm still in my grieving. Alright. I better stop and rest. I need to heal, so I better do just that. Just... I should take my time on things, so I may not be on Umamusume and PSO2 for too long while I heal... hopefully.
Oh! I forgot. On the bright side of things, I'm learning how to make separators. You might've already noticed a separator on the site. Alright. That's pretty much it. I better... sleep before I do pass out from exhaustion.
I didn't think this would be my first blog post, but I guess here we are. So yeah... I've been updating the site in (no so) regular intervals, and just this morning, I heard that my grandfather had passed away. And that hurt a lot, so I'm not very motivated to continue updating right now. So after this update, which introduces the Blog Entries, I'm going to be distracting myself for a while. Who knows. Maybe I'll make a new web page for this site to show my Twitch Streaming Schedule. Not completely sure yet.
Anyway, on a more down to earth, and back on topic, I'm sad. I'm sad I won't be able to see him anymore. If only I could see him before his passing. Dang... This hurts... this sucks... I don't have the motivation to do things. I'm gonna try to do things tomorrow, but healing doesn't simply work in one day. It'll take more time.
I already miss him. :'(
I'm going to take time on healing from this loss, so I cancelled what I would be streaming on Twitch, starting tomorrow.
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